right now i’m using my sister’s laptop. my few months old laptop broke down. this is the second time it happened, the second time i deliberately tried to break it apart because it was working too slow. after i jabbed my fist on it many times it just stopped working. i pressed the power button (restart) and after a few seconds here comes the blue screen again woot! my bad. or maybe i shouldn’t really blame myself for what happened. the laptop even have viruses, thanks to my bro for connecting his virus-loaded psp to my laptop. anyway, i had to send it to the repair shop so i could use it again but it’s been a week, no good news and i’m about to lose my patience again. i guess that’s what happens to you if you don’t get enough sleep for weeks/months/years. you easily lose patience on things (or is it just me?) and start hurting yourself without knowing it (my knuckles turned red lol)..on winter break, i just wanna sleep all 2 weeks long..perhaps somehow my face will bloom again? or more importantly, i won’t get easily depressed anymore. i feel so tired and i feel like i just want a break from everything and everyone again. im lucky to have my bestfriend who would sincerely listen to me about anything but i just can’t really take him down the drain with me. i cant do that, i will feel so bad if he becomes like me!>.< i am so alone. he says i don't have any reason to be sad at all, with all the blessings God has been giving me, but still i don't know why i'm feeling this way? maybe i just need to take a long sleep. fortunately winter break starts on thursday. i can take a good amount of rest for many days. =/
as soon as i get my laptop back, i'll do another post. see yah
p.s.
hmm do i need people to pray for me? or do i just need to check up on my health?!im serious!
