Kathleen's blog

I’ve been through ups and downs and this rollercoaster ride I know will never end. But you’re sitting beside me, making sure I’m safe, somehow, whenever I just want it to stop, your voice tells me to hold on tight. That’s what I do and you hold me tighter in your arms. I want to let go, but you wouldn’t. Am I worth it?

christmas is here!! unfortunately i wont be celebrating in phils, where christmas starts in september! i miss my friends and the putobungbong (i don’t know what they call it in english) and i miss waking up early in the morning, so quiet and peaceful and i’m just alone letting my spirit wander from here to there. i love hearing the churches’ loud bells and people’s sharing of their funny attempts to hide from their friend’s kids lol. i know i am missing so many things this season! i don’t know what plans do we have as a family for the next two weeks of vacation. i think we are just going to celebrate christmas and new years eve in a hotel and we are to join parties hosted by the company my dad is working for. it’s not very exciting for me. i just wanna stay at home and listen to my favorite christmas songs and now i just wanna cry waaaaa can’t help it! i feel (a bit) sad! T^T

ok enough.. uhm i just want you to know that my account Godneversleeps in youtube is gone. but I have a new account and it’s Godneversleeps1. i didn’t change my picture and i don’t want to let go of the username so i just added a number at the end. i like the name and so do other people. i like YT’s new layout and it’s easier to navigate things. now please visit my YT page if you have the time and see the videos I saved as my favorites. you can add me as a friend too, =) thank yoU!

it’s true that ‘God never sleeps!’ He does, it seems to many people but in reality he does not, ok! it’s us who need to wake up and see the Light!

ok im off to bed! God bless us!

Godneversleeps1

right now i’m using my sister’s laptop. my few months old laptop broke down. this is the second time it happened, the second time i deliberately tried to break it apart because it was working too slow. after i jabbed my fist on it many times it just stopped working. i pressed the power button (restart) and after a few seconds here comes the blue screen again woot! my bad. or maybe i shouldn’t really blame myself for what happened. the laptop even have viruses, thanks to my bro for connecting his virus-loaded psp to my laptop. anyway, i had to send it to the repair shop so i could use it again but it’s been a week, no good news and i’m about to lose my patience again. i guess that’s what happens to you if you don’t get enough sleep for weeks/months/years. you easily lose patience on things (or is it just me?) and start hurting yourself without knowing it (my knuckles turned red lol)..on winter break, i just wanna sleep all 2 weeks long..perhaps somehow my face will bloom again? or more importantly, i won’t get easily depressed anymore. i feel so tired and i feel like i just want a break from everything and everyone again. im lucky to have my bestfriend who would sincerely listen to me about anything but i just can’t really take him down the drain with me. i cant do that, i will feel so bad if he becomes like me!>.< i am so alone. he says i don't have any reason to be sad at all, with all the blessings God has been giving me, but still i don't know why i'm feeling this way? maybe i just need to take a long sleep. fortunately winter break starts on thursday. i can take a good amount of rest for many days. =/

as soon as i get my laptop back, i'll do another post. see yah

p.s.
hmm do i need people to pray for me? or do i just need to check up on my health?!im serious!

bleh~! I’ve been feeling yucky for almost two weeks now because of my runny nose. i guess a fresh orange juice everyday doesn’t work for me. but anyway, whew! i am partly done with cleaning up junks in my emails and other accounts. to have an email ad more than one or two is not really a good idea for somebody like me. i am not so sure why i even thought of making one email for each of my accounts. i have one for youtube, one for godtube, another one for friends and so on, well yeah you get the idea. i guess my peabrain didn’t want to get so confused with a whole lot of messages waiting in one inbox..lol now i just decided to keep 3 and deactivate the others.yay~! i hope to finish this today, coz my free time is about to end.

my 9-day holiday so far so good. i have no special plans of going out with my family. ”So you had fun doing nothing then?” my boss would probably ask me on sunday. Well honestly, i don’t enjoy walking around with the temperature going 40degreesC and just like what she said, there’s really nothing much to do in this country. i don’t like shopping that much (nothing special in here really), and i don’t enjoy my mom’s window-shopping spree or my dad’s movie trip. im pretty happy with just sitting in front of my computer, typing here and typing that. You can buy something of your interest online, you can even watch movies online. Why do I have to go out? And one more thing, I don’t have friends (particularly same age as me) in this place. They are in my homecountry and we can only talk and see each other online. what a pretty boring life huh? kinda. but i know a lot of ways to have fun by myself. and for now, i just enjoy watching stuff that will help and encourage me to grow in faith and get a deeper relationship with Jesus. it’s not just for the purpose of entertaining myself, you see, i missed God so much. and that’s really sad! but Im back in His arms now and i am thankful and grateful for another chance of having a new life with Him. Praise God!

As of this moment, as i’m writing, Paul Washer’s video sermon is playing in the background. I’m not a multi-task person, I can hear it but I don’t listen to it. I only have a few ideas about the video, like what is being a ‘radical christian’. I don’t know who/what the pastor is as a person, or what he totally believes in (ofcourse Jesus) or what denomination he belongs to, but his message is really powerful and says “Wake up people!” and now I am examining myself and I know that I am guilty of what he says in the video. And i want to share the link to you so that you can watch it too. I still don’t know what to say for now and probably I will talk about what goes in my mind in one of my next posts. I just have to finish what I have to do today and then perhaps I have more time or space to think about what this pastor is telling me. I just realized that I haven’t gone all through this video from the beginning to end so it’s next on my to-do list.

Alright, see yah later. Have a nice day!..